To Dearest silly boy

Silly boy, dont always blame yourself that things that you cant do(: I wouldnt blame you(: But i will love you for what the god have given me the best thing in my life<3

i met a awesome guy in my life(: He had always been there for me & always make sure i was happy :D He have given me many joy even through i know its abit too fast to get attached but im glad to know him(: I didnt purposely say this cause you looking at my blog hor. im serious it comes from my heart<3 Today is the 8 day we are together (: & I LOVE YOU!<3 You are so much different from the guys i know.. & i mean its good lah. But i know i abit too open minded le, i promise i will improve on that de. I will be more girly abit but you have to give me think to get used to it and change myself okay?(:

Thanks for giving me all the support that i need^^ & of cause the love & protection too(: I would really want to last long with you(: You will always be the special & important person in my life<3

I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU LOTS<3 ! ^.^ Hehe

I LOVE AARON LUM ZHI YING!!!!!!!!<3

Well 2012 is finally here and 2011 is finally over. Things are getting better i guess. Went to USS with Nicole,Kenneth& Rishi, really had lots fun but i think i spent a little too much:/ But its worth it(:

I had BBQ with my dearest 4A yesterday(: It was really awesome!

Oh did mention i got into Service skill (office), wasnt really happy about it but at least i got to a course in Simei ITE!(:

i cut short my fringe, now i looks like small gal):

well i really dunno what talk about. hais bye for now.

<3 Im not emoing:/

I had been thinking a lot lately. I know what I want. I want to be myself. I don’t want to act like someone that I’m not anymore. It’s so tiring. I know once I decided this, there will be more people will be hating me. But I don’t give a dare. I don’t give a fuck of what others will thing about me. If they can’t accept who I am that’s too bad for them. It’s your lose right? Well, should stop talking about that.

Lately something bad has happen to me. My uncle & auntie want me to move out, she said I have grown up & it’s time for me to move out. I can’t believe my uncle still can’t get over it about my dad scolding him because of me. Shouldn’t I be the one should be angry? You lost my laptop. & you are angry about my dad & grandma scolding? What logics is that? My auntie also asks my dad to faster get a house. How do we have to find a house in such a short time? Most importantly I don’t want to move away from tampines. It’s the only places where all my dearest friends are. Its where all my beautiful memories are flowing. I don’t want to forget these places & the people around here. I know I can always come back but it will never be the same anymore. I’m tired of the life here. Grandma is always telling me stuff thinking that I will never understand, as she still thinks that I’m still a kid. But who will understand that, I already know what’s happening around me, even things that you don’t want me to know. Actually what’s the different even if I move to somewhere fast? Even I’m living near all my friends but I still always feel so left out. Either when I am alone or with friends. I still find lonely. I don’t receive texts or call anymore. I used to have when I still have a boyfriend & a very close best friend. But I lost both of them. I used to be someone important to them but now. I’m nothing but a loner. I lost everything I used to have.

Now, all I wish for is to get 6-7points for EMB2. I hope I will do well in my N level & move on to ITE. Even though I have not choose what course I want. But I want to go poly. Fix my stupid backbone & move on to my future. Now the point for my N level means everything to me. It’s my only hope now.

Im feeling so empty right now..

i feel so uncomfortable . i want see you but the same time i dun wan to see you too. if i did not accidently see that . i wont be so... i almost tear at my work place. i dunno what i was thinking of. i know no matter you will still be with her soon. but i just cant help it. i just miss you so much... i just i never had really let go you. even if i had tried a million time. you are just too hard for me to be forgotten. in a simple term, you have already part of my life... Ahhh.. what has gone into me? FREAK!

Whatever it is my work has been very slack. quite a few more off for me.. dunno why too. then i have spend my time at home?

Been busy with work & cca (: today im working in the afternoon so i was thinking of updating blog. if not it ill be dead again): Hmm.. i keep kena scolding by the first manage): but lucky the second manager is nice to all of us(: oh ! & now im working with JOEY-mei!(: so happy! have been talking alot with her(: oh! this friday Jeasvin & falice coming for interview(: hahas.

hmmm... lets talk about ncdcc..

they been quit busy this week everyday training to prepare their up coming drill competition ! Its this SATURDAY!! :0 then there is PDS ? Open house? Pahang trip? maybe EOY camp?

will be so damn busy lah!):

i been camwhore alot too! hehe:P

finally graduated from st. Hilda's(; its been a great time in shss this 4 yrs(: i wont nvr forget this moments(: most importantly my classmates, teacher and my cca (:

14Oct a day to remember(:

bye st. Hilda's secondary school(: love ya! <3<3

-Amelia (: is u are looking at this, dun worry i wont abandon you de(: i promise(: <3

-Nicole(: Love ur gift so much(: <3<3 i look so retarded (: hahas , really gonna miss the times we spent together(: & i will nvr forget u and all the memories(:

-Chanel(; Thanks for ur card & the chocolate:D It been great time spending with u(: meet up soon kay!

-damn to all my classmate<3 I LOVE YOU!

-NCDCC (: i will be back(: lols

-Teacher(: thank you very much(:

-Nadia , Shikin & Elya(: thanks for everything(; & the little chat with you guys<3