THIS IS SPECIALLY FOR MY DEAREST CLASSMATE NORMAN LEE ! (:

i really feel so stupid. i kena play/toy by guy. i feel so dumb. your right, i am dumb , always been choosing the wrong guy. when will i ever find a guy like u? all other guys i stead is either wth , wtf, playboy, flirt , ? what wrong with me? what wrong with my bloody eyes? really hope to find a guy like u. nice, helpful, always trying ur best to hid ur feeling, daring, brave, able to protect me, smart, quite handsome, sweet, always trying ur best to help me, etc.

my life is totally screw, if only i was nvr born. since my mom didnt even wanted to raised me up, i didnt have a complete family. i dun wan go home so early, i like to stay outside, but sometime i jus dun have any places to go... at home i always kena nag n stuff , outside? Rishi & Fila? when they busy, i have totally no where to go... sometime i dun even know where to go... i walk n walk i found myself in places tht we have been. the stop u will get down when u send me home. i even over shot my stop n i get down somewhere ur house....

hais. N level? is totally here. in like 1-2 weeks. i cant focus, sometime brain jus went blank... trying my best . i know no one will bw able to help me. only me n only myself.

there are only 3 person who are the reason for me to live on is. my grandma, you & my bff Amelia Tan hwee ee.

n few more things. my dream have yet not come true. i hope the day will come faster.

if u r reading this. Yes, i still like u.

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COOL !♥

I'm feeling so sad. I'm staying at a place where everyone will call them home. where every kids would want to be. where a place when kids reach, they would see they parent, grandparents.. but to me i really dunno where my home is . i dun feel like i'm home. every time when i reach home, all i see is a quiet , empty house & my grandma is either playing games or sleeping. i have no one to talk to. nobody at home was able to teach. every year i wish on my birthday. when the moment i reach i will able to see my family, present & a cake. but all i see was a empty house.

now is getting even worst, family quarreling. my grandma & uncle dun talk to each other, cousin ignoring me & grandma. Auntie was rude to my grandma. My grandma say if need to move house also need around 6 months more. i tired my best to stay outside , just to forget my family matter, but i know i cannot hide everyday... i feeling very upset.. hais forget it.. this is my life..

i left with 2-3 weeks till my N level. so scared ): i gotta work damn hard for it . i want to go the course i want. i want go ITE Simei. I wan go CLT course. I want to become a CLT in St. Hilda's Sec. i want to survive though after these year in shss . i know what i want, where to go, what i really want to be.

After all, u dun need a boyfriend to survive. You is a friend, true friend that u can trust. will walk u through all the pain u have.

(: I wan to be a brave , a girl that person would like to hang with, able to say all ur secret to someone u trust(: