i cant tahan anymore. why must my family fight when i at home?? im really tired of it, i cant take it. i need to cry out. i need a shoulder but there is no one able to lend me thir shoulder. im really tired of living, what the point of living when you cant even feel any love from anyone? im really feeling so lonely. tearing all day long because of family matter, now tht im grounded, im feeling more lonely... i dun even have anyone to talk to.. ****** dun like texting.. i know u r busy at there too... amelia need to focused on her eoy. now i really... im left alone...

where are you?? i hope to see u soon to talk about this, i cant keep everything inside anymore. its too much to keep in... i need you. as a friend, as a talking buddy that's all. please..

Things are getting worst each day, just grandma and auntie almost quarrel .my grandma came back n tell me, i mean like wth lah, ahma tell me this. after tht heard my auntie saying bad things about my grandma. seriously stop it lah, im still young in the family, dun you think this will infect my studies? i mean seriously y do u guys need to quarrel over some small things? dun u think u guys acting more childish then me?

when i tot i can stay with my dad , i was freaking happy. at least i can stay away from this quarrel. but then cannot rent house.. my grandfather still owe $2000 . hais. wtheck.

around 1 week more till my next paper. i cant even sleep for 2 days.

feeling really down over the clt thing. im still hoping they will change their mind . i really want to be clt , i dun wan to be volunteer , junior might think im busybody everytime go back help. hais. damn dream are suppose to come true right? but why didnt my dream come true?

Next thing, i really want to find someone i love and he must able to protect me from everything. he will love me, care about me, etc... im losing hope in my family, i dun have anyone to care for me, most importantly i dun wan to alone at home everything. & spending all my time on boring stuff.

hmmm. i guess im sleeping late today again.

so fast , its my last day of school 23 sept. so sad bt i didnt cry! Im brave ! HAHAHAHA. spamming lots of photos. but seriously most of them are my class picture. damn it lah! im gonna miss them like freaking alot lah! we spent 4 years together!): im gonna miss my cca too. bad news is high chance i wouldnt go through CLT interview ); hais. but Ms Lee want me back next year to help her, as she dunno whether Lucas got in for Clt anot. Damn i didnt get the chances to take picture with most of my friends. hope i will get tht chances on Graduation day!(: on the 14 Oct(: Hehe

i cant wait for N level to finish! (: Hope i will pass with fkyingggg colours! hehe

WELL I WILL ALWAYS LOVE MY DEAREST 4A! <3<3<3<3<3

& NCDCC <3<3<3<3<3